Let's talk briefly about anger and how destructive it can be. I remember getting so angry that it would consume me. I would then get so angry with myself for being so angry with statements to myself like "what the hell is wrong with you". I would punish myself and often even physically beat myself up. As you can probably imagine this wasn't a great strategy for a joyous life. I think I started to get angry when my parents split at the age of 2 and found ways to stay angry for the next 3 decades. I later learned that the anger was often being used to hide the deep pain I felt and at least I thought I had some control over the anger (I was wrong). Let me help you understand yourself and at a minimum, stop being so pissed off all the time.